This post will be a little more personal than usual.  It's been a rough week around here.

We came home from a week in Kennett to find that none of our fish had survived the week.  While my mom checked on them daily, the filter wasn't on as much and lots and lots of rain may have caused the pond to overflow at some point.  Our poor fish pond had no fish.  This would turn out to be the least traumatic thing to happen all week.  

The very next day, tragedy struck our community.  By now, you've probably seen the news about the death of a young man and the turmoil in Ferguson, Missouri.  If not, you can read about it here or anywhere really.  This situation hit close to home, both figuratively and literally.  Sunday night was by far the worst night, with so much violence and hatred that I was sure Jesus was coming.  I haven't slept a full night since that night.

Each night was sleepless.  Each morning, before I even got out of bed I immediately checked my phone to see what terrible things had happened overnight.  Each day, the regular television schedule was interrupted, almost all day, by breaking news on violence and protests and news conferences.  I was a little on edge all week, and would like to apologize to the Jehovah's Witnesses who knocked on the door (while Jason was at work), for answering the door with a steak knife behind my back.  Although the encounter didn't last long, as they threw a pamphlet at me and took off.

The Ferguson community remained in turmoil with innocent residents caught in the crossfire.  My heart ached for them.  I just felt a sense of sadness for the whole situation.  

I decided to stay off of social media due to the hateful comments and misinformation being spread.  After dinner Monday night, I decided to check Facebook and Twitter to see if there were any new developments in the Ferguson situation.  At the top of my news feed was the death of Robin Williams.  I've never cried when a celebrity has died, but this time I cried.  I cried a lot.  It's almost like every sadness and frustration I had been holding in for the past couple of days just came out at the sight of those words "Robin Williams dead at 63."

I think what got to me the most was that there is so much sadness and hatred in this world (some of which I was seeing in my own backyard) and we need more people like Robin Williams, not less of them.  We need someone to make us laugh and make us happy.  My heart broke for him as well.  How could someone who made so many people so happy, be so sad?

Each time the news broke in on the TV, it was more bad news.  I wanted desperately to hear something good, but no such luck.

On Wednesday night, we met my mom for dinner at Freddie's.  I ordered a double cheeseburger.  It was a double cheeseburger kind of week.  I also got ice cream.  I don't even regret it.

I hope the weekend brings peace for everyone involved in this terrible situation.  I believe it's a peace only Jesus can provide.  I can only pray for a positive outcome.

I also bought four more fish today.